LOST!!!

the major part of my 18yr long lyf .ie, 7 long years were spent in ma boarding school... i got admission there @ the age of 10! oh! so did all my fellow mates.. at first say, for the 1st 3 yrs, lyf seemed all tough. but later i learned 2 live that lyf.
my school was so... big that i thought it never saw our little worries nd tears. and teachers... i confess i still think if the authorities were kind enough 2 sack some of the teachers, lyf in there wud've been more beautiful!
the 1st 3 yrs went with tears of homesickness nd lost feelings... and i think wen i reached 8th std only we dared 2 BREAK THE RULES! oh! yeah... i still cherish those small n big adventures...lyk midnyt raids in school orchads, conducting prohibited midnyt parties, midnyt visits, bunking physical training sessions, skipping punishments nd impositions etc.. oh! really, then these were the real adventures.. cant remember how we did it, but we used 2 break such rules right under the big noses of teachers nd even the vice principal! no, u wont get its dangers involved... we cud get punished 4 even being rude 2 teachers... they used 2 punish us in such a way that the memmories never left us physically or mentally... i can still show u the pinch marks in ma skin..
but may be because of such cruelties we made it always sure we create a new problem every now nd then...
well, upto 8th grade ma lyf was lyk this. nd i think it was after the summer vacation that we noticed our skirts were no longer covering our knees! well..... CHANGES!!! both physical nd mental... oh! the great tym of crushes nd doubts... i think it was then we noticed the boys who wrer sharing our very classes are cute or handsome ( though, they took one more yr 2 realise this nd 2 notice the girls) oh! really, it was a tym.... as if all of a sudden the world became beautiful 4 us! and we all took our tym to woner about each of us's beauty... we spent the nyts discussing about hw 2 get rid of pimples, dandruff etc..nd wrer lost in talks... meanwhile, these tyms were the toughest tyms 4 teachers...well, they face the same problem with every batch.so obviously hey were well prepared 4 our btch too. they became sooo.... vigilant that it resulted in minor warnings, suspensions etc. so i think some of the minor incidents nd some major accidents helped in finishing some crushes be4 they were even born! and some, obviously, either died or hidden deep in little hearts, and never realised, as a result!i was not shocked , if 2 say truth, wen one of ma classmate confessed me that he had a crush upon me at the school tyms... i just said, "well, even i had the same feeling 4 u too" nd we laughed..... still, i felt a pain somewhere.... it was actually a feeling of LOST!!!
now, i am in college. all those things that were denied or prohibited 2 us is now available at my finger tips... still, i dont feel lyk enjoing them... i think this must be the same with my old mates..... nd sme really told me! why now? i dont get it.... wen we were all there, we used 2 discuss energeticaly about the freedom awiting us in college lyf. what for, even we made it promise each other we all will have crushes nd will declare them... me, jhan, divi, sree, vini.....
i dont know about others.. but am sure now i really miss my school.... oh! so do the others... i know without them telling me... well, wen we were parting, we use 2 tell each other,"what 4 u r crying? u r gonna step out 2 the much better world outside" but still we all knew deep....somewhere.... that lyf wud never be the same... LOST!!!